WAT CAN I DO NOW!!!!!!!!!!

Its really hurt, knowing dat u wont luv me anymore....
Really dunno how 2 face u again....
Its gonna take a long time for me 2 heal dis,
n I really dunno wat can I do except crying...
I feel weak without u...
Its so strange when I found out dat I gotta live like not knwing u from now on,
cant hold u tight even when u r near, cant close 2 u even when u r here,
gotta pretend like xthing ever happened when I see u,
n the worst part is....
I gotta let it go even thought dis luv is so strong!!!
I knw dat v shouldn't start,
but wat can I do?
I still hav2 let it go!!!
I gotta face dis world of emptiness from now on,
I m gonna live wif loneliness n walk in my shoe of blues,
I m going 2die but all laws prohibited so,
I wanna fly 2 another country wif new hope but my mom is still here,
I M SO AWFULLY GRIEVES NOW!!!!!
GODDD!!!!! WAT CAN I DO!!!!
PLEASE SEND ME SOMEBODY TO HELP!!!!!!!!
I m so sad....T,T;
I feels like dying....